While driving home this morning from dropping Ari off at a dance clinic, Aron & I heard Aidan singing from the backseat ...
"To me, I am so wonderful!
To me, I am so wonderful!"
We frequently change the words to "Oh, How I Love Jesus" by replacing our kids names and changing the lines (i.e. "Oh, how I love Ava, because she is so sweet"). They think it is funny and soothes them when they are grumpy. I guess Aidan was feeling a little left out because we had been singing to Ava, so he decided to sing to himself! But I heard God speaking to me in that moment as well. How many times do I sing that song by my actions? Many days, I am the most important person in my life. I make decisions and take actions that do not benefit anyone but me. I forget to be the servant that God has called me to be, especially to my family. Lord, help me to remember the real lyrics to that old song and realize that in your great love for me, you accepted me even in my sin and are continuing to sanctify me by your grace.
And still, Aidan was very cute singing his little song ... :)
Monday, May 9, 2011
I sent a mass email today to the people in the school district that I have worked with over the past 5 years letting them know of my "big change" to stay-at-home mommy and thanking them for their help. A little unexpectedly, I received the kindest, most genuine responses from these people that I have only communicated with by email or over the phone. I don't even know what most of them look like, yet they gave heart-felt congratulations and expressed sadness at not working with me after this year. It is times like these that I remember how much I dislike change. Although I am SO EXCITED to be staying home, there is still a tinge of sadness at the thought of leaving behind so many relationships that I have made. I wish that I could still talk to my co-workers and know what is going on in their lives, but alas that is not how life works.. There are few people in our lives that remain constant through the years. But times like these also make me thankful for those that God has put into my life that do remain - family members and friends that will be with me until the end - and my husband and children definitely fall into that category! I am making this change in obedience to God, but also as a gesture to Aron, Ariana, Aidan, and Ava that they are the most important people in my life. And THAT thought makes change wonderful!